Wow, to go from Christian fetishization of sexual interest as "lust" to gay fetishes, all while having CP. I do think life is punishment. There's something to be said for anything that disrupts patterns- the "patterns" of this world" Rom 12:2.

You didn't go to Prairie College in Alberta did you? If I had talent I'd to a T.V. series set there in the school year of 1949-1950 when Elisabeth Elliot & Fred Phelps attended.