What a challenge, you're right. There's been this massive gaslighting which takes enormous efforts to see clear of. You realize: no, some old phrases in temple lore of a lost people don't condemn you to Hell. No, Leviticus doesn't say straight people are next to Godliness and doesn't provide prompts to attack gays. No, Christianity didn't know how to read the OT, or the NT for that matter. Yes, God does love you, even when you're Christian.